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killa_bee
Bad-mannered
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posted November 04, 2003 09:24 PM |
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Killa's story
I've decided to let everyone know a little somethin about me
I grew up in New Jersey with both parents and two sisters. Dad wasn't really around he was always at work making money, and if I wasn't out with friends I was at home with mom and 2 sisters.
Dad didn't know how to raise kids, I dont believe. Basically his motto was 'I'm the father your the child, do what i tell ya or you'll get slammed.' I guess you could say I was hit often, I was never hit for no reason I always did somethin bad I guess but i think him and my mom got physical a little too often.
8th grade I moved to a different town and made friends quick.
Highschool came around freshman year I got into a huge fight with all my friends and I was on my own in college. Heroes 3 was introduced my freshman/sophmore year. We all know Michael_Arch was a little punk. I could break anyone's balls, but if anyone ever said anything back to me God help 'em cuz they'd get whacked 5 times harder.
Highschool progessed I guess you could say I was lowkey at school for the most part, started smokin alotta herb by my junior year and life couldnt have gotten much worse. Ha I was havin a real hard time. Senior year was a little more relaxed but I didnt have as much fun as my friends had.
College came around and freshman year had to be the worst year of my life. I started reflectin how I treated people in my life... I guess you could say I had an overwhelming amount of regret which kinda depressed me.
Now I see where I'm at in my life now. I'm finally away from home and life is gettin better everyday. Doin homework is finally the cool thing to do in life... I've set a good schedule of lifting, reading, homework, poker (texas' hold'em), livin up the college life.
In case you all wondered why I was such a hardass and a punk now you all know. Am I writing this for pity? Absolutely not... But there is a reason for this.
I live in America and I am a firm believer in freedom of speech. Basically i dont like anyone tellin me what or what not to do, say or what not to say. I've had my parents try to do that and i think most of the stuff they tried teachin me was bull anyway. Yeah you may all think just because i'm the kid i dont like my parents blah blah blah and I appreciate the thought, but my parents didnt know much about raising kids.
People in general should not let people irrirate them. Basically if you see someone insulting people left and right all the time they have enough problems of their own and it is stupid to be irritated by them. All ya have to do is put a privacy setting on zonefriends so someone can't zm you. Or right click the name in the chatroom and ignore someone you dont want to read in the chat.
As for you people that are reading this thinkin to yourself this kid is such a punk, i hate him, etc. etc. etc.
I think you all have enough problems in your own life to take a teenager seriously with his insults. Putting yourself on a teenager's level and arguing with him is not very smart, so all the hardship i've caused ya's you kinda did to yourself.
As for heroes 3, it will be my all time favorite game as long as I live. I had some great games met some great people and learned to use my mind to a great extent. Despite all the drama that went I enjoyed being around everybody for the most part. Good luck to all and hope to see ya's in heroes 5?
Its my life...
Killa Bee
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Hexa
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posted November 04, 2003 10:32 PM |
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Nice post!@
Cya in homm5 then.
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bjorn190
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Supreme Hero
Jebus maker
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posted November 05, 2003 12:15 AM |
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I've decided to let everyone know a little somethin about me
Good luck to all and hope to see ya's in heroes 5?
Its my life...
Killa Bee
Sounds coo killa. I been jankin ur chain a bit from time to time, all in good fun 
Just want you to know that ur not alone, ever, as long as you're a gamer.. might have to cool down tho and be more caring about talking to peeps. Takes a strong person to do that. Maybe some day u'll be ready.
Let me know if its somethin.. cya
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Dingo
Responsible
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God of Dark SPAM
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posted November 05, 2003 01:46 AM |
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That was the best apoligy I've seen in a while.
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vesuvius
Hero of Order
Honor Above all Else
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posted November 05, 2003 02:07 AM |
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there are a few people who care
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killa_bee
Bad-mannered
Known Hero
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posted November 05, 2003 02:45 AM |
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hey ves
your a funny guy sometimes yeah... but you gotta learn how to be funny without insultin other people... thats why so many people hate u too cuz your arrogant... somethin i'm tryin not to be anymore and i'm only 19
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kasparov
Adventuring Hero
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posted November 05, 2003 06:19 AM |
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19, born and raised in people's republic of china. moved to canada in may, 2001.
i had always been good---didn't watch too much TV, barely hang out with friends(prolly coz i never had many friends anyway), never smoked or drank, i was one of the best students in class, always had the highest mark in math, not that good in subjects other than math, chemistry and fiziks. i went to the best junior high and senior high in my city, which had a population of 6,000,000 and approximately 150 high schools.
then i got to know heroes of might and magic 3. since then my marks dropped fast and i slowly became uninterested in studying.
and then i immigrated to canada with my dad, mom didn't come and then they got divorced.
luckily my grade 10 math knowledge helped me get 2 provicial champion titles and one second place in grade 11 and grade 12 math competitions in canada.
i started playing chess in february, 2002 and became the school champion(in a small town in manitoba, canada) in june. i was feeling that i was on top of the world, then somehow i became depressed, very much depressed. this year i was beaten by a german exchange student, he's been playing since 5 or 6. it was for best 4 out of 7 games and i was winning 3-1, then we had 2 draws and the next thing i knew was that i lost 3 games rather quickly and felt miserable about it. so i became even more depressed.
then i went into university. majored in electrical engineering.
i am not sure if it was a right decision for me to come to canada. i feel that i'v betrayed my own country and am being punished with discrimination from another country. well, there isn't actually anyone saying horrible things right to my face or doing harm to me but i don't like it here, i miss my mother and my motherland. however i'll have to live with it for another, at least 4~5 years till i graduate from this canadian university. actually i shouldn't blame any one it's all my own fault, i play too much heroes, chess and soccer. recently i often felt i am a big loser. i have this feeling that i peaked too early in my life. i still have 60 years to live and i am thinking about the good old days, how pathetic!
i don't know what i wrote down i just kept typing and now i feel a lil better, thank you killa. and thank everyone who read my nonsense.
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Aculias
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Undefeatable Hero
Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
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posted November 05, 2003 06:50 AM |
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Thats cool Killa you have an ave life & to me you have it easy compared most.
My parents were also kids when they had my brother & me including an adoption before I was born but after my brother was born so basically as my mom told me like 7-8 yrs ago I was unexpected.
My mom was only 17 a kid having my brother & 19 having me.
My dad never had parents, his mom only spoke spanish & he only spoke english, really strict but no communication.
Never ever met his dad.
He also had 3 younger brothers 2 twins & one younger.
He did his school work on his own & had his share out in the streets.
By time he was 18 his mother died & he was left a life changing option,he could either work & take care of his brothers that were 16 & 13 yrs old or he could let them go to Foster care & go to college.
He decided to take care of his brothers as a parent not even knowing how.
He been working for same company ever since even today.
Now my mom was living there at time she was cruel beat on them & not worked much so my dad had to work alot of hrs to make ends meet.
My motherraised in ohio had 4 sisters & 1 brother.
Her father was in the world war 2 & extremely abusive he would literally every day beat every kid black & blue, even her mother.
My whole mom family side is totally disfunctiol.
My youngest aunt died in a penetntionary.
My other aunt total crack addict & her lifes basically over.
My mom probally in best shoes & is only one thats changing for the best finally.
My uncle been in jail numerous times & even got a pic of his weed plant in his Hawaiin front yard so you can imagine he been in the hawaii jail more then once.
So when comes to us My parents got a divorve when i was 3 & bro 5.
I moved in with my mom & step father.
I had a hard life since I was 9 living with her all the abuse you can think of & mental abuse tore me up.
Tag teamed by my bro & mother was not easy on me especially being unexpected my mother did more for my bro then me.
I lived my dad he did his best for basically being an adult since really young.
I didnt get attention so I looked for it somewhere else & went to the wrong crowd which I also got me to be expelled from high school so to this day I have not graduated.
I was never raised of the responsibility so when I was 18 I was booted from the house to fend for myself going to numurous shelters, rooms for rent.
Got robbed twice which is a bad Karma for my past life.
I was a dick too I was since I was 19 but I had no choice but to change.
If I didnt change i would of ended up like some my old friends, move, dead or in jail.
I changed my life around since I was 19 I remember it.
Was with my xxx GF when I left her & she got an abortion after 2 months pregnancy I never dispised someone in my life more then her so I moved back out into shelter & lost a kid that would of been 8 yrs old now.THangs went down hill I lost my job because my temper & I moved to accross the bay.
Moved my moms house didnt work, my aunt but her drug prob was too much so I moved with my brother & bunch of friends & got my life together.
To this day I got a descent job.
A house & great people i know even now since i lived on my own in homeless shelters to now out here.
Man sleeping in streets can get cold hehe.
Point is everyone has or had problems, some worst then others.
Point is learn from the problems & see how your parents were going through & raised you & reflect how you would treat others & your kids or future kids how you would want to be treated or fairness.
SOmetimes not good to let them have all they want.
Everyone has problems it all depends on how you deal with them & what you can do to make your life & peoples lives around you alot more easiar.
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Celfious
Promising
Legendary Hero
From earth
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posted November 05, 2003 08:19 AM |
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Ny first highschool made my dam lazy.
They didnt take attendence like they should have. My higest grade freshmen year was midterm exam at the score of %15. All else was 5s or zeros.
Not 1 truincy officer stoped me. My mother was never called but report cards told all. I didnt care if she knew I was busy sleeping or hiding until she went to work. I became familiar with the luxuries of laziness. Video games, TV, easy food (never genaric) cuz I would yell like "mom dam theres no food how am I suposed to eat? "
Then uh.. lol I let the wrong crowd get into me.
Age 14 was my first wierd thought. And wierdest thought ever, I thought I made a deal with evil in a 30 minute to an hour time period that the musical sounds in the song, were coursing through my body like lovely spiritual feelings.
The friends didnt influence my life.
I told them "I crossed over" and they understood. I became extremely confused about major philosophical questions and I asked the 19+ year olds what is going on? and they pretenciously gave obscure awnsers. Funny stuff although I had fun.
I was in and out of rehabilitation places which was totaly unnessesary. They subconcsiously convinced me that pot was evil or wrong. (tho it may be somewhat, they are frigging extremists) I had particular questions at the time, but I never knew how to ask them, and I didn't know that no rehabilitator had the awnser.
(i will skip my chicago years for lack of originality to my story.. Only there were no 19+ year olds. Just people my age who didn't understand me where I could make sense myself.)
joined up in the navy, blabla.. got into a legal halucinigetic. Questiond the oracle of truth even more. Finaly started to develop understanding near the same time the navy decided to give me an early Honerable discharge.
Moved home to chi town got my own place and I dont have to work. I get to learn things, and be idle with my ideas until the time for somthing new occours. I seemingly developed more and more understanding of the oracle especialy after I met someone quite similar to me. Shes only different that we had a different train of thoughts from birth. But our minds are seemingly identicle.
And during a 4 month period, through my evolution in treatment of women & commparrisons to someone else like me, I generaly achieved a seemingly golden mean within my mind.
I see all that I can see, while the questions are like clouds above my wings lingering on my back. I seperate the 2 very easily, to very extreme levels. And use spare time philosiphising how I see things more clear than some of the acknowledged philosiphers. I see ignorance in nearly everyone defending their opinion (see socrates, ideals on his knowing nothing where I disagree, he knew what he knew, and knew what he didnt, and also knew that what he knew may be incorrect.)
So killa, kasava, acu.. and the rest
We all had different lives interesting we all have our past dramas :]
Our lives, consisted of likeness of building blocks. Killa went through those things, and as result, he alters himself in relation to those parts of his life.
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Aculias
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Undefeatable Hero
Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
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posted November 05, 2003 11:30 AM |
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So which one is Ves & which other is Kinxer  ?
I was thinking Ves was on the right hand side & Jinxer on the left  .
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Sir_Stiven
Honorable
Legendary Hero
banned
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posted November 05, 2003 12:16 PM |
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hi and welcome to ricki lake - the heroescommunity version 
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Titan_888
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Wind of Change
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posted November 05, 2003 03:12 PM |
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To killa and kasparov... Bein an open minded person in this situation is something valuable.. i beleive we all one way or another have some troubles and problems in life.. that makes us choose the wrong decissions.. well maybe not Vesuvius the Ignorant bastard.. but who cares about him anyways.. he just a simple foo that thinks he better than anyone else.. oh yeah.. DID YOU SEE THOOSE BOOBS?
anyways... keep bein openminded.. and then you learn to accept the curse we all have from past... Cure will come... i was cursed for 18 years.. maybe someday i can write it here but.. 1 thing is sure... i was lucky to find love again... and it made me abbandon the curse of computer life!! a good thing about bein openminded towards others.. is to see their reaction... their reactions shows how you will feel about them... love.. hate.. understanding etc.
For me... i been vulnerable yes... but this time its different... im strong enuff to face the concequences that life will give me... good and bad times... i will not leave the path i was guided into!!
All respect to you killa and kasparov for this thread!!!
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vesuvius
Hero of Order
Honor Above all Else
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posted November 05, 2003 06:11 PM |
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You have to be around for 4 years to know killa. Ups and downs, friendly one day, another b.s. story another day. Hence his words are taken with a grain of salt.
Unfortunately most of you guys on this board are like WWF fans, where a 'character' turns from bad guy to good guy and back, you cheer and sway to whatever it dictates haha.
To see what he makes of himself by 30, then we'll talk.
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killa_bee
Bad-mannered
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posted November 05, 2003 06:27 PM |
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go drill out some cavities and learn to be liked. I know I'm sure as hell nobody's favorite around here but at least I got balls to tell people about my life.
"With a grain of salt"
thats deep for a guy with his shirt off holding a sword next to 2 other men
peace
Killa
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tewilligar
Famous Hero
Just another willigar
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posted November 05, 2003 07:10 PM |
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go drill out some cavities and learn to be liked. I know I'm sure as hell nobody's favorite around here but at least I got balls to tell people about my life.
"With a grain of salt"
thats deep for a guy with his shirt off holding a sword next to 2 other men
peace
Killa
killa your story was a sincere one,i enjoyed it.
one thing...stop hiding behind the fact you are only 19,it gets old fast.
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chubby051
Promising
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King of All That Are Fat
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posted November 05, 2003 07:26 PM |
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Excuses are like a$$holes. Everybody has one, and they all stink!!!"
19 years old = knowing what you are doing and knowing why it is unacceptable and rude. You're not a child.
Actions speak louder then words, and atleast you are off to a good start. But as I am sure you know, its gonna take more then a "I'm sorry" or a "My life sucks, this is why" thread for many peeps to forgive you. I am sorry about what you consider your "bad life", but it doesn't justify your actions. I never really had any problems with you so please don't take this as an insult, I am just being honest.
Chubbs
There is good in everything, you just have to look for it.
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hamsi128
Promising
Supreme Hero
tosser tavern owner
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posted November 05, 2003 07:27 PM |
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a guy with his shirt off holding a sword next to 2 other men
khayman have stomach(stop beer) , greystole is mini between two muscles man and vesuvius have to stop taining bench press , too much boobs
btw killa, u have to apologice from some people you insulted in zone... its shame to see old veterans spamming and farting in zone...
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Aculias
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Undefeatable Hero
Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
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posted November 05, 2003 09:50 PM |
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Actually Hamsi thats the Anvil I hope I said his name right between Ves & Okhay man .
Yes it would been dif if Ves was the guy in the middle
Sometimes not worth talking about stories or any other ways to apologise but to do it step by step without saying nothing.
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rychenroller
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posted November 05, 2003 09:55 PM |
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Excuses are like a$$holes. Everybody has one, and they all stink!!!"
19 years old = knowing what you are doing and knowing why it is unacceptable and rude. You're not a child.
Actions speak louder then words, and atleast you are off to a good start. But as I am sure you know, its gonna take more then a "I'm sorry" or a "My life sucks, this is why" thread for many peeps to forgive you. I am sorry about what you consider your "bad life", but it doesn't justify your actions. I never really had any problems with you so please don't take this as an insult, I am just being honest.
Chubbs
There is good in everything, you just have to look for it.
Nice Kev, I've never heard so many cliches in the one spot in my life
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chubby051
Promising
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King of All That Are Fat
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posted November 05, 2003 10:59 PM |
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lol, very true. But cliches are tried and true, otherwise they wouldn't be cliches. hehe And they make long stories short and I didn't feel like typing an entire paper. Direct and to the point, how I like things. lol
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