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Heroes Community > Other Side of the Monitor > Thread: i must atleast offer a fragment of my reality on this important day
Thread: i must atleast offer a fragment of my reality on this important day
Celfious
Celfious


Promising
Legendary Hero
From earth
posted May 12, 2009 07:55 AM
Edited by Celfious at 07:56, 12 May 2009.

i must atleast offer a fragment of my reality on this important day

i was abandoned by my father, and step mother, while I was at the age of 12. I had done something bad, however I didn't know it was bad. "Forgive him for he knows not what he does" If you must know, I and 2 others even younger than me, by the misleading of another even older than I took into our living lungs the chemical contaminants of silver spray paint. I warn everyone that chemicals are bad, yet, at the time of its inductions into our lungs, we knew not any better.

When the 2 younger were asked what THEY were doing, they LIED!! They, lied for a reason, for why would anyone with something they think they could and should hide, reveal something that feels wrong to them?

I, on the other hand, admitted exactly what it was. I had not known, the severity of the chemical. I didnt know, it was bad. I didnt know it was a drug.

I had found her, the step mother. I know it is her, for I tracked her name to the same states, times and eras of my father, who I also had slight tabs on for quite some time. I do not know nor wish to know any further contact information from them, but when I found her "facebook" profile... I could not resist.

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i do apologize for my adolescent ignorance, I had not however knowingly done the wrong thing until after that day. A little interesting, reading those monthly requirements to be enclosed in a BLANK piece of paper. And I was treated as if I were supposed to act like an adult when I was yet to reach my teens. And the day came, when I was cut free from the grasp of US legal statuses dubbing me a minor. The last piece of paper, was BLANK.

I had in fact made attempts to retain a relationship with my family member but was it up to me? Seriously? Abandoned! And he who whence commeth no more, for this is finalized into the pages of eternity. You come lacking, your history book, is incomplete, for you would not reveal the truth to one unknowing. Why, how could you even? The historians will know better, for I had not even been the one to tell them, there is one who has all power.

I want nothing from you, either of you! I clean my side of the street of childhood ignorance, in the face of wrongful accusations. I bleed, but the pain throbs no more. When the time comes my name will be instilled upon mainstream forums, know now that I will NEVER welcome you.
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Mytical
Mytical


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Chaos seeking Harmony
posted May 12, 2009 07:56 AM

I simply do not know if you are a genius or something scary...
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Celfious
Celfious


Promising
Legendary Hero
From earth
posted May 12, 2009 07:57 AM
Edited by Celfious at 07:58, 12 May 2009.

well, i can say your a super fast reader

sorry, ya'll I wouldnt have imposed this among you all but it is perhaps one of the most important days of my entire life

edit: the blank piece of paper represents that which covered the child support check month after month... never one word from those filthy people
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Celfious
Celfious


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From earth
posted May 12, 2009 08:25 AM

feel free not to read this, I only wish for it to be publicly historical evidence of the day I decided to speak up

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there is a story of 3 boys, and historians know of the 4th, who was much older, much more deceptive, and much more evil than the parent and step parent of a young 12 year old was ever conceived to be by anyone.

The 2 boys who lied, and the 1 who told the truth.

I was the one who said exactly what was in the plastic bag, for I had felt it was not entirely harmful/bad/wrong etc.

The 2 boys on the other hand, seemed to know better, because they LIED about what was in the bag.


For over 15 years now, I have lived with this on my mind. I had never had a need to justify. I knew deep within my wise soul that I had made a mistake "It's just spray paint, you can buy it at the store, its not a drug" No watcher had warned me otherwise, so I had no problem letting the authorities know what I was doing "But why whats the problem" I had asked within myself "It's just spray paint"

while the others lied

These are not harsh words, but the are harsh truths. I fear not the repercussion, but I fear for your souls.

You people stay away from me, I am soon to be someone who will pronounce my name much differently from the form it was given. I need nor want anything from you. If it comes down to forgiveness, that I already have for you. But for only your souls. Not your minds, your bodies, your hearts, your thoughts, but for your souls.Not your positions in life, nothing else period!

Knowing something is wrong is as you definitely know the start of the path to correctiveness. However your perceptions have taken you into a shadowy land of self ordained righteousness. Blame, is not a trademark of any saint, and you are far from equality to any divine being.

You are far past redemption in my eyes. On that 18th full year of my life when that paper was blank I knew what kind of people you were. As I said, your souls are all I need to have peace with, within my SELF. But there will never be a shred of correctness in what you did to your child, father. I suggest you not worry about me, for I am lost from you. I suggest you look at yourself.

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Elvin
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posted May 12, 2009 09:02 AM

I'm sorry to hear that celfious. Can't have been easy and it certainly wasn't fair. So much can happen over one stupid thing you did as youngster..
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Celfious
Celfious


Promising
Legendary Hero
From earth
posted May 14, 2009 04:03 AM

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***** JEREMY I S EVIL..AND MAYBE THEN SOME. I AM SO SORRY , NEVER THOUGHT HE WOULD POP UP. I AM GOING TO E-MAIL MY FRIENDS REGARDING HIM..TO DROP HIM QUICK. YOU DO LIKE WISE. JEFF WILL BE HOME IN THE A.M.,EARLY OR ELSE I WOULD CALL YOU. BUT WHEN THINGS SETTLE DOWN HERE I WILL CALL YOU AS WELL AS CHECKING MY MAIL. JUST DON`T RESPOND TO HIM. I THINK I WILL DROP OFF OF FACE BOOK. IF I WERE TO SLEEP TONIGHT I`D HAVE NIGHTMARES.  HE IS MORE TALK THAN ACTION AND A COMPULSIVE LIAR AS WELL. HE TELLS THINGS LIKE HE IS THE ANGEL. NOT SO. O.K. KID IF YOU SEE THIS IN THE NEXT FEW,TIME NOW 11:58 SEND MAIL AND I WILL CALL. LOVE YOU DON`T FREAK,LATER,HELENE


lol they base this off of my decepted 12 year old mind... What fools

Ok, my reply is the last installment of the public archive of what has been said.

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lol you have not known me for 15 years and you are quick to pass judgement. I care not what you think or say, nor of a father capable of abandoning his son based on assumtions, which I admit are easily obtained. The truth is a much older guy convinced me spray paint is not bad, truth is I believed it to the point that I would not LIE unlike others involved.

It's quite funny, actually, how you think you can know someone who you pass judgments on from 15 years ago when I was TWELVE.

I would not expect something different from someone who in hiding uses their full name on the internet.

You, neither of you, need worry about me. I am merely the messenger. I promote nothing further than speaking the truth. BLAME is not a trait of ANY saint, and it appears to me for numerous reasons, that neither of you are anywhere close to divinity. I bring news of redemption. The need for it anyways... To blame a 12 year old child for the remainder of your lives is SICK. To abandon a child is inexcusable. To JUDGE others even when you know nothing about them, perhaps like this case? Yes? Is complete idiocy, ignorance, foolishness, and unjustifiable in the eyes of both mortals and divinity.

Mark this day, as your warning. BOTH of you! You feed each other with twisted distorted rubbish, and live your lives the way you wanted to, but I have revealed the truth in many forms through the language of men, through the language of the spirit, under the eyes of God. The warning poses no threat to you, in this life, perhaps you will actually make it, perhaps you will ask for forgiveness to the proper authority. I am the messenger, it's not in my hands, never was, never wanted it to be.

Good luck


I want this to remain here please mods.. thanks I hope
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Azagal
Azagal


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Smooth Snake
posted May 14, 2009 05:28 AM
Edited by Azagal at 05:29, 14 May 2009.

Woaw... that's deep. Sorry about that Celf. I really like your replies (if you neglect the godish-flavour they havE).

But it looks like you're wasting your breath (well more like your finger strength) on these kind of people. So sad...
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Celfious
Celfious


Promising
Legendary Hero
From earth
posted May 14, 2009 05:41 AM

I hear your point, we'll just say it is closure..

Honestly, I only put it here in HC for preservation purposes. It would be ok on my PC as a file but I would rather it be publicly accessible.
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